“Driftwood”

February, as they say, is the “love month”… so topics and songs about love are in every corner… flowers and heart-shaped chocolates are for sale everywhere too… before the pandemic, traffic is so heavy and hotels are fully booked come February 14… ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜… but that is not the case for two years now…

Well, this is not about the statistics of couples causing traffic or filling up the hotel rooms on V-day… When I think about the love month, I just kind of think about this question that’s been asked of me so many times and that I asked others in return: “In choosing the love of your life, who will you go for? The one who loves you? Or the one you love?”… This is probably one of the most difficult question that is asked of me simply because I do not have a ready answer.

In my idealistic years, I would instantly answer “the one who loves me”. Most of my girl friends would choose this… Yes, I remember that its kind of tricky when a boy asks you this because he might be phishing for some info and he will act accordingly when you give him this answer… that is a different story though… It’s rare for girls to answer “the one you love” to this question like I don’t know why… maybe because of the preconcieved notion that girls should be the one being pursued and that boys love should weigh more than the girl…  those stuff ๐Ÿ˜‘.

But as you grow older and when my friends and I would ask this same question at this time, its a different answer I would say… Before we could utter our “used to be quick answers”, there is this “ummmm” or “hmmmm, let me see” and then preceded by lots of examples to support the answer… LOL ๐Ÿคญ and there is this glitter of “unsureness” in the eyes as the answer is relayed. Like the tone at the end of the answer  is a question mark.

It took me quite awhile to gather my thoughts to answer this question with clarity… i have to pause and examine myself deeply… and now I could say with conviction that I would choose “the one that I love” anytime… yeah, no doubt… coz it is difficult to convince yourself to love somebody just because they “love” you… I would liken it to the same case when pursuing a job… a job that pays you good or a job that you love… with the job that pays good but does not spark your soul will leave you feeling depleted while with the job that you love, you always find the good in the not so good… if you know what I am saying…

I guess that same goes for relationships for me. When you choose someone who “loves” you, it is more like having a joint bank account that has more withdrawals than deposits as you sail through your journey as a couple. On the other hand, you strive to put in to your joint bank account for the one you love even if for a mere Php 1. But I think that is also dependent on who that person is… Sometimes, the person who loves you becomes the person you love when he turns out to be a good person too…

It’s that complicated haha… as for me, I will just ride along the tide in the sea of love… waiting for that big splash that can turn my world upside up… ๐Ÿ˜Š the journey could be exhausting just like that of a driftwood, love it or hate it… but it is a wonderful piece of art, waiting to be found… โค๐Ÿฅฐ

Free Rides

This weekend has been probably the busiest of all the weekends so far… maybe because of the more relaxed “restrictions” pertaining to Covid… Yesterday was my usual “grocery day” and I had difficulty getting a cab or a Grab… i waited almost an hour for transportation… and then this taxi stopped by and told me he cannot accommodate because he is eating his lunch at Petron station but can drop me there instead… so I went in… On our way to Petron, he asked me a question, “why is it so traffic on a Saturday but not on a weekday?”… without any pause I blurted, “because on weekdays most people are working from home and Saturday is the day they go out like me kuya… i am one of those who causes traffic on a Saturday”… and we both laughed. ๐Ÿ˜Š at Petron, I thanked him for the short ride and rode a jeepney going to Market Market for only Php 10. Amazing! ๐Ÿ™ƒ

Today is no different from yesterday… no taxis nor Grab… after more than 30 minutes of waiting, a private vehicle stopped and the driver told me to get in… at first I said no coz I don’t know him but then later saw the Grab poster at the backseat… Thank God!!! ๐Ÿ˜‡ I asked him how am I supposed to pay him when I haven’t booked him in Grab app… He did not answer my question but he started to ask me if I live in RPR too and I said yes… He asked what building and I told him… and he started to tell me that he lives there too and just moved in recently in the same building as I am…  and I told him yes I know the couple who used to live where he lives now…

Out of nowhere he started venting out about his passenger before me who also lives in RPR… he said that the woman is a member of this (I forgot already the name ๐Ÿคญ๐Ÿ™ƒ) religious group… he told her that he also lives in RPR and he was kind of dismayed when the woman exclaimed, “Really? You’re a driver and you live in RPR?”… he said he was almost tempted to disrespectfully answer the woman back but he is online and if he did, he would be reported to Grab. So he did not and just swallowed the woman’s insensitive remarks… He then told me about the time when he was invited by a pastor of that religious group and when he went to their church, he was not happy about what he saw because inside there was groupings in their congregation… the drivers and helpers are in a separate group from the other “affluent” members… which is crazy I agreed and that he scolded the pastor who invited him about it… I asked him what is his religion, he said he was born Catholic but it doesn’t matter what religion he is in coz he respects other religion be it Islam, Iglesia or whatever… And I couldn’t agree more. ๐Ÿ˜Š

When we reached the intersection between SM Aura and Market Market, I grabbed my wallet to offer payment but he said no need to pay him and that I must cross the pedestrian lane while the traffic light is red… I thanked him then walked fast going to SM Aura…

It’s two angels in a row actually… two free rides… hmmm, maybe it’s the December vibes… or maybe its just simply “miracles” that do happen everyday… ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜Š

V’ed

My head still hurts… Today, I received my first dose of Moderna vaccine… It was our company HR who registered us online so when I finally received a text confirming my schedule, I applied for a half day leave from work…

I was kinda nervous going to the drive through vaccine facility area… I booked a Grab car going there… while we were traveling, I tried to make a conversation with the driver coz the silence was killing me apart from the dreaded thought of being vaccinated…  he just gave me a “one question, one answer”-type of vibe… when we reached the destination, I was made to sign a waiver saying that the makers of the vaccine has no liability with what happens to me after the vaccine administration… I was sort of complaining and that was when the driver loosened himself a bit and he started sharing about his uncle pastor who was against vaccination, about what happened to his family when Covid hit us all last year, his thoughts about vaccination and the ECQ effect upon him… okay hold up, too much info already ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜Š

When my time has come, I don’t really know what to feel… I kept on asking the person who vaccinated me questions like “have you been vaccinated yourselves? What was the effect on you? Is it painful? Etc etc” ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿคฃ I think I was the only person talking in the area ๐Ÿ˜†… maybe that was how nervous I am… LOL… It was not painful at all… I could barely feel the needle inside me… And the assistant said that the guy who gave me the dose was very good at it… I was asked to stay for 5 minutes to check whether I would experience an adverse effect but did not so we procรจeded to go back home… I, then, took a pic and showed to some of my friends and colleagues…

It was only after reaching home that I felt my head was aching… My kids were sleeping so I went to my room to rest… I woke up 4 hours after like I have been drugged and could feel the vaccinated arm kinda heavy… I am still experiencing headache ’til now… Then a colleague of mine said I should have taken paracetamol after the vaccination but did not… Not until my body would say “go drink!” ๐Ÿ˜

Next day, after vaccination, my head still hurts and I kinda feel slightly feverish.. my left arm is more painful than yesterday… I could feel the lump and pain especially on the part that was shot… I was almost tempted to drink paracetamol but did not… definitely have high tolerance for pain ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™Š

Am I going to die? Oh please I hope not… I am pro life and I want to live long… my kids were asking about what I feel after the first dose and I told them about the tolerable but uncomfortable headache… one of my colleagues was joking about me turning into a zombie in after like xx days… welp, I was glad that I waited a little longer and got the vaccine that I wanted… Thank you!๐Ÿ˜‡ I just hope that I made the right decision and that it will not have any adverse long term effects as far as health is concerned..

So, long live the V’ed… ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜Š

To V or not to V

This morning while waiting for the shuttle service going to a supermarket here in our community, I was approached by a granny neighbor and she asked me “is the shuttle arriving soon?”…. I told her “am not sure” coz I just arrived at the stop. Then, we talked about the most popular topic during these times – “vaccination”… she said vaccines are scams… I asked, “why do you say so Ate?”… She told me that they put liquid metal into the vaccines and that once you avail, you will already have a “666” written on your forehead… she asked me if I have been vaccinated already… I told her “NO” but was trying many times to get a schedule but to no avail… then, she advised me not to pursue it coz its bad… The shuttle was taking too long to arrive so I hailed a cab but its full… Next, granny took notice of my favorite shorts and she told me “girls these days wear shorts to save time for laundry”… I just smiled at her then finally the empty taxi cab arrived… I invited her to join me and we rode together to the supermarket nearby… when we reached the store, we bade each other goodbye and proceeded to empty my buy list.

It’s ECQ (Enhanced Community Quarantine) here so the only open establishments are those that are considered “Essentials”… After buying groceries, I went to SM Aura and Market Market but I didn’t expect that most of the malls are not fully open except for supermarkets and some resto… Good thing National Bookstore is considered essential. The department store was closed but they let me in after asking if I am a buying customer… After buying some clothes for kids, I went to the supermarket to buy other items which I haven’t bought in the supermarket near my place… After that, I proceeded to Marlet Market to claim the package sent to me by my good friend Jocel for me and the kids… Before that, the inspection was kinda strict before we could enter and we needed to prove that we are a resident of Taguig… Took me a while to convince the guard coz I do not have ID showing the address in Taguig… But he let me in eventually… I should have known better…๐Ÿ™†โ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‘

They say that during ECQ, vaccination schedules will be released sooner coz the government wants to reach 70% vaccinated population before the year ends… Hmmmm… we’ll see…

I have to say that initially I am so against getting myself vaccinated… not because of the conspiracy theories spreading (some of which I find a pinch of possible truth though) but more because of health reasons… I don’t usually drink medicines when I get sick and usually medicate thru food and vitamin overdose… with that being said, I don’t think that the vaccines have been tested for long term effects which I am concerned about the most… what can I do? The President said he will put those who refuse vaccination to jail.. haha ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜‚ maybe the good thing about having the vaccine card is the ease of travel and the quarantine restrictions is eased as well… I don’t know… I am thankful for the lag though… coz am not a fan of the needles ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿ˜Š…

All I can do now is pray… that the schedule that will be available is a Saturday and that the vaccine that will be injected is safe, effective and with no side effects (Pfizer please!!! Cough! Cough! โ˜บ)

Yey!!! Got my quarantine pass just now!!! Thanks to my good neighbors who informed me… this is so priceless nowadays!!! I kinda hear Gollum saying “My Precious!!!” … that is how precious this CQP during these times… Hihihi ๐Ÿ˜ Thank you my angels ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿฅฐ

The “Phantom”

Who are you? I asked… Who are you that watches me like a thief in the night waiting for any moment to attack? And who are you that watches me but at the same time feels like you also have my back?

Are you the headless white skinny man who invaded my thoughts in my sleep two or three years ago when I was searching for meaning? Are you a girl friend or an enemy who mistook my tears for sadness? It’s not that I like or dislike the words you are brewing… But I do wonder how you broke into my private space and try hard to create all the mess?

You must be a very talented person… And that alone is my only “who are you?” reason… But I need to get you out of my system… As my words and how you quickly judged them…

I don’t want to be like Christine in Andrew Lloyd Weber’s Phantom of the Opera… Come show me yourself, I said… so I can show you mine that is what I am asking… You cannot expect me to open myself up while you yourself are in hiding… If by doing what you do is fun for you and whoever is with you, then go live your life the way you want it to…

A good friend told me to just ignore you… It’s good but a part of me says I want to solve the case too… But it’s funny how I realize what a waste of time and like setting myself up like a canon… When all you are to me is like a lie, yeah just like a phantom.

So I thought you might need some good song to fill your day with more love than “hate”… ๐Ÿฅฐ

All I Ask of You – Andrew Lloyd Weber

No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears;
I’m here, nothing can harm you,
My words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
Let daylight dry your tears;
I’m here, with you, beside you,
To guard you and to guide you.

Say you love me every waking moment,
Turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
Promise me that all you say is true,
That’s all I ask of you.

Let me be your shelter,
Let me be your light;
You’re safe, no one will find you,
Your fears are far behind you.All I want is freedom,
A world with no more night;
And you, always beside me,
To hold me and to hide me.

Then say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime;
Let me lead you from your solitude.
Say you need me with you, here beside you,
Anywhere you go, let me go too,
Christine, that’s all I ask of you

Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime;
Say the word and I will follow you.Share each day with me,
Each night, each morning.Say you love me! RAOUL
You know I do.Love me, that’s all I ask of you

The “Rogue” Networker

It has been a week since I have transferred to a house here in Taguig City. The moment I landed in Manila, I was already staying in my employer’s quarters with free meals and other stay in freebies. That’s about one month and three days to be exact. Somehow I miss the monotony of staying in and of course, Anne my breakfast, lunch and dinner buddy… hehe… She is also under Finance but not under me… Under me are all Chinese expats who are on a Work From Home arrangement so I haven’t really met them in person yet… Maybe soon… hopefully soon…

During the stay-in period, I wasn’t really able to focus on my USANA business as planned since we are not allowed to sell or do any business inside the company premises… Charge to the first day orientation… But I do at times on weekends when I am inside my office… Kinda hard-headed huh! ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ I can’t help but do it still on the side whenever I have the chance but for a few hours only. During these times, I have been inviting my friends and relatives to join me in USANA. I have been told by my upline, the one who invited me to join USANA, and “coaches” that whenever I do invite I should not mention that its USANA. Hmmmmm… That’s kind of “off” to me because I don’t do business like that. I always tell my friends, relatives and former colleagues that I am inviting them for the USANA biz. I hesitantly obeyed but I noticed that whenever I do their advice, I don’t get successful invites… It really doesn’t work on me. And they, my “coaches”, have been insisting to stick on the script and I am very awkward with scripts but when I open my mouth without scripts and just let my thoughts flow that is my thing… Tsk tsk tsk… Ok so I told them their style doesn’t really work on my contacts. I don’t want my contacts to feel that I am hiding something from them… I told them to be transparent and that I am proud to say its USANA. Well, they insisted on their formula and it was even stressed during the many Success Saturday events… Looking back, I was indeed invited by M telling me that its a project from Germany and only during the presentation did I know that it was USANA. They also haven’t told me that the minimum number of points for one BC is 200 not 300. I still choose to say its USANA… I don’t care whether my contacts would get discouraged after telling them its USANA but at least I told them my business. Another “off” moment for me was when R, the upline of M, asked me if I changed my website password. I said “Yes”. Of course I would change it. She and M told me that I should not change the password for them to assist me during the enrollment. I asked Mich why should I not change my password? I don’t want anybody getting into my website and checking on stuff. I can do the enrollment… I told them to teach me and I will do it… Well, I guess the “Yes Upline” can be abused… tsk tsk tsk… Though I did not share to them my password, I still attended the team trainings and continued to send invites.

Come April 17, the day when I was finally free!!! like a jailbird who just got out of Alcatraz… hahaha… ๐Ÿ˜… Thank you to my employer who graciously “delivered” me to my place safely. I could finally put out the things in my “very pink” luggage… And yes, I could already do the things that I have been longing to do like cook, sing, dance and hmmmm paint soon… I haven’t been to any nearest National Bookstore yet to buy the painting materials… This house is a lucky house coz I was able to get a total of three signups for my USANA business in just a matter of days after I moved in… After I got my first pay-in in this house, my “coaches” told me in front of my new associate about not changing the password and letting them in in our website so they can monitor the points…blah blah… Oh my God! What??? they haven’t moved on! These guys are annoying me already… I told them my side of story… I told them that I am sorry I cannot give them my password… Done! Oh! These people… Duh! I don’t like people sneaking on my stuff…. Don’t cross the line… Networking is a people business and business is about trust. I am very picky with business partners coz most people who I have done business with are there for their own ulterior motives.

I now understand why networking and USANA has been put into a bad light. Its not the company nor the network marketing as a business model… It’s always the people behind. USANA is a good company listed in the New York Stock Exchange which means that they follow strict government regulations in terms of communicating their financial condition to their stakeholders. The scientist founder, Dr. Myron Wentz, is a recipient of Albert Einstein award. The products are amazing and I tried it myself and I keep on using them already…

the left group are for personal consumption hihihi… the other side either for sale or be given to friends ๐Ÿ˜Š

And network marketing is a great business model…ask Robert Kiyosaki and Warren Buffet… My thoughts on why people are hesitant to this type of business is that they are not properly guided or educated (like me) on how to do the business or maybe felt used thinking that only the people in the upper levels could benefit… That is if you focus on those other people but if focus on your self and your team’s progress, you will definitely grow in the business… When I attended the USANA Virtual Asia-Pacific Convention, they say you have to be independent, honest and transparent. And I totally agree.

In my one and a half months of doing the business, I already recovered more than 10% of my investment just by earning passive income from sharing the business. I could not be happier with the platform that USANA provided to make this business easier for us to do. The dropshipping model makes it very convenient as well. My preferred customers, distributors and associates have very good feedback because the products arrived so fast. But I still need to learn about the different policies in countries where USANA is present coz I want to expand my network globally… as to how? I am still in the determination phase… I want this done properly… no hiding of details… no sneaky stuff… which means I am going rogue… I will tell people that I am doing the USANA business, the minimum number of points for one Business Center per geographical location and that I am a proud networker who will never ask my fellow independent business owners under me to give me their website password. My goal is to create a community of USANA users and to meet the founder of USANA in one of my travel incentives coz he is now my idol hahaha… So I would be able to personally thank and tell him that I am doing USANA and I am proud. ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜Š

Transitioning at the Heart of Change

It was a smooth transition… never expected it to be but yeah… like a sign telling me you are on the right track… and yeah, the 14-day plan was executed well… thanks to all the people who, I would say, instrumental to making it happen! – my kids, my friends, my bro, my Hijo fam, the purok and barangay officers, the logistics guys, the caretakers, the cable customer service personnel, the laundry staff and pldt staff… love you guys! you are all my angels ๐Ÿ™‚ The first 7 days of the 14-day plan is not so action-packed but my mind was super busy overthinking how to execute what I have planned… LOL! ๐Ÿ˜The second week was super busy and the last three days, March 11-14, were definite in terms of our activities and place of stay since I booked it via AirBNB ahead of time…

March 1 to 7:

March 1 was a local holiday in Davao City while March 2 was my last day in Hijo and my team gave me a despedida cum advance birthday party… During the party, one of my team leads asked me if I am not scared going to Manila because he said that the people in Manila thinks so highly of themselves (well, based on his experience, I guess)… I just told him that I am not scared and that it is not my first time in Manila and I have made a bunch of good friends there during those times… So I am not really the type to generalize people based on few “bad apples”… Based on my experience, human personality is the same whether you are from Davao or Manila or Cebu or outside of the Philippines. The gravity would probably depend on the environment and culture that the person grew up in… My two cents… The rest of the first week entails more on inquiring how to apply for medical certificate since it is a requirement to be able check in at Avida Towers where my kids and I planned on having our staycation in, how to apply for disconnection of my cable, landline and internet subscriptions, and opening a bank account for my kids. For the medical certificate, I needed to get the purok and barangay clearance which the staff advised to be secured a week before our check in… I also plotted the whole 14-day plan in a white board and placed it near the entrance to our house so it’s visible to me when I enter and leave the house… It was also during the first week when I dreamed about my future colleagues even though I haven’t met them yet… It’s funny coz the scene was like this: “I was in a conference room and I was surrounded by some people… I introduced myself to them but I did not see any of their faces… At the end of my introduction, they were saying “pasalubong!!!” which means asking for some goodies that they expected upon my arrival Hehehe… Then I took out a handful of durian candies in my bag… I woke up after that… Hmmmm… I told my daughters about that dream and Pia told me “Well, maybe they were thinking about you mommu”… I don’t know but I have weird dreams about people… Sometimes I feel that people are communicating with me thru my dreams… So I end up overthinking my dreams… Overthinking about the message of my dreams… But when I check out on people in my dreams, they do not necessarily miss me! LOL! ๐Ÿคช So stop overthinking! haha! But I am that naive and gullible girl, so I bought Davao dark chocolates and durian candies for my future colleagues… hihi ๐Ÿ˜‡

how my pasalubong looked like ๐Ÿ˜€ 4 pcs of Davao chocolates and 9 packs of durian candies (coz I ate the other one pack ๐Ÿ˜‚)

On March 6, I attended a USANA business presentation as I have been invited by my former colleague at Hijo… It was around 7PM… I know USANA as a good and pricey supplements brand but when the presentor shared the business model, I got excited… I have been looking for a side hustle that does not confine me in any geographical location so when she told me about the dropshipping business model of USANA, I decided right there and then. I planned on doing this on a part-time basis and I didn’t expect that after signing up as a business center, I would be invited to a lot of trainings the following day… Oh my, I want to do this part-time and at my own pace only… But yeah, the learning opportunities at USANA are all inspiring and awesome…

March 8-14:

This week happened so quickly and the busiest week ever by far! On the first day of the week, I got the medical certificates and claimed my USANA products at Abreeza Corporate Center. I was so excited that I started using the CellSentials duo and the whitening toothpaste and read all the manuals in the starter kit. I have to be the product of my products so I can sell it well… There is a lot to learn definitely… The second day, I received the PSA birth certificates of mine which I ordered online… Thank God… everything was a breeze! I mean despite the busy-ness, all the things that I needed to get and do prior to my departure were received and done before my D-date which is so cool! ๐Ÿ˜€ Thank you Universe! We continued packing our things in preparation for the transfer. Then come the day of transfer date… I contacted the logistics guys and transfer was made easy coz they are very systematic… The following day was my birthdate… Before the celebration, we cleaned and applied for the disconnection which was not very hard to do… No queue, which was surprising… My BFF, came to celebrate my birthday with us… We were supposed to go swimming after eating dinner but then maximum heads per unit allowed to swim is 2 only… I was intentionally “unhealthy” during the week… We ate unhealthy food that my kids love like sweets, meats, fastfoods, pizzas, cakes, etc… I did not exercise… My weight was usually between 52-53 kgs but now I am 53.8 kgs… LOL ๐Ÿ˜ On March 13 I bought the “pasalubong” goodies for my colleagues and then visited my mom and dad… After that we ate dinner and slept early in preparation for the next day… March 14 was my departure date… We woke up early… Ordered breakfast at Jollibee and went to the airport… I texted my ex that he can pick up the kids at 8:30am so I left the car keys to Pia at 8:15am and went inside the airport to check in. At the bag drop counter, I exceeded 12 kgs because I cannot leave behind the things that have sentimental values to me… LOL… ๐Ÿ˜… I know it was my fault but I felt like I was robbed because the crews were rude when I tried negotiating for a lower rate and asking them for solutions that could lower the excess amount like using my points, upgrading my booking etc… Actually, my fare was much lower than the excess… Thug life! LOL! So I gave the bag drop crew a “Very Dissatisfied” rating… Bad me! I know right?! ๐Ÿ‘ฟ I booked seat 1A so I could easily deplane without hassle upon arrival in Manila… But the funny thing was that Cebu Pacific deplaned their passengers starting from 31-32 seats because only the back door was opened… What the @!#&! ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ After getting the checked in baggage, I was fetched by the company van driver and the office seemed very near the airport since we got here in just about 10 minutes. They brought me to the isolation room to be quarantined… Oh my! Never expected this! But they were good enough to place me in an isolation room where I can have my own privacy… But yeah!!! ๐Ÿฅบ They issued me a laptop and made sign papers for my move-in and hey! It’s free meals!!! LOL! ๐Ÿ˜Ž

I formally started working yesterday, March 15… But since I am being quarantined and still in isolation, I had my orientation online and had been subjected to swab testing… Ouch! The nose sampling was kinda painful while the oral was no sweat! After that, I spent the day learning about the USANA business, advertising my products thru Instagram, reading the Boundless Potential book by Mark Walton and watching some Ted Talk videos…. Well, imagine me alternating all these! haha! ๐Ÿค“ I am super excited to meet my team already but only after the result of my swab test will come out… I am super duper excited to start working… Patience my dear… Transition? No fear! ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜

“Silencing the Noise”

Today is EDSA People Power Revolution holiday here in the Philippines… It’s the 36th anniversary when our late President Ferdinand Marcos was removed from power and installed President Corazon Aquino as the first female President of the Philippines…. Hmmm… to be honest, I believe Marcos was the best President the Philippines ever had… for a number of reasons and yeah, because of what he has done for the country… Well, I am not so into about politics and I have a weird view of it… So I would rather talk about my “revolution”… As mentioned before, I experienced this “Separation Anxiety” throughout the month of February when the “me moving to Manila” finally came true. I should be thankful though and I really am… The universe has been very kind to me… It’s just that maybe I was hesitant being out of my comfort zone… not my first time in Manila but Davao has been my comfort zone – my kids, my friends here, the company, the house, the car, etc. My kids and I are always talking about how we will move things around here before my departure date… Pia volunteered to cook breakfast so she could spend time with me in the morning before me going to work… Ria keep on telling me that she wanted to go with me and never fails to give me her “juiciest” butterfly kisses.. My friends, well they wanted to keep in touch every weekend… At work, my bosses want to give me free lunch next week and I have been given free lunch by our Chief Corporate Legal Officer. So it’s nice to resign coz I have free food!!! hahaha…

thanks to Sir Gerryโ€™s lunch treat and Annaโ€™s Starbucks treat ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ˜Š – 2/26/21

My staff keep on telling me that they have a surprise for me on my last day and I told them that I am no longer surprised hihihi… ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‚

At this point when I wanted to sort things out alone is when it feels like people seek my presence.. I am touched… Guess the leaving calls for the staying… If you know what I am saying… And this weird feeling bottled up inside me is more like wanting to poop ๐Ÿ’ฉ and vomit ๐Ÿคฎ at the same time but I am in a game where you will be asked to choose only one option which is difficult… ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ No I am not lonely… The feeling is a combination of excitement and nervousness… Excited for my kids and I and a little nervous about my new challenging role… Can’t help thinking about March 14, my departure date… I have told a handful of people already… some are kinda sad coz distance would make me inaccessible… I could not forget the response of my BFF when I told her about it… She just said “Yey! I’m excited!!! What company and when?” which actually gave me the boost that I needed at that time. ๐Ÿ˜Š… With this little time I have remaining here in Davao City, I need to heighten my focus and spend more time with kiddos. And speaking of spending more time with kids, allow me to share the adventure that my kids and I made two days before today.

I took a two-days leave of the 15 days vacation leave I have last February 23 and 24. I filed it the moment I accepted the job offer. I was thinking of going back to Pearl Farm but my kids requested for another place and when we viewed the website, Pia got excited about the horseback riding and zipline facilities of the place. And so, book the place we did. In the morning of Feb 23, everything was relaxed. We woke up around 5am… I cooked breakfast and they took a bath… After eating breakfast, I took a bath then arranged our things to bring at Camp Sabros… I, then, started to activate Waze and searched for the direction going to the place. But before that, we passed by my Mom and Dad’s. Here’s our going to CS pics… It was a long and winding road going there like literally!!! But it was a lot of fun and therapeutic road tripping and singing along with our 90’s to Now playlist. ๐Ÿฅฐ

Upon arrival, we ate our lunch and then proceeded to check in at our cottage. Ms. Jacque called me when I told her that we were already in Camp Sabros and she invited us to have a bonfire and picnic at their spot. We prepared and waited for her arrival. So we took shots while waiting ๐Ÿ˜‹

Ms Jacque picked us up at around 4:30pm and we road tripped for a while and she toured us at the other side of the mountain. While nearing their place, the rain poured so the chance of having a picnic and bonfire went from slim to none. ๐Ÿ˜ซ We decided to go back to Camp Sabros instead and have some pizzas and other foods. The evening went well and we had a very nice dinner. After eating there is this dog who went near us and looks at me while wagging his tail… Oh I think the dog likes me… Hehehe… I mean this dog: ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป

We were so full and we had a round of picture taking outside of the resto… Then, we bade goodbye to the gang and got ourselves ready for sleep… It was a long but fun day:

The next day, we planned to do all the rides we intended on the first day… I woke up at 5am but got out of bed 30 minutes after to do my 10-minutes meditation… The scene and the birds chirping were good background for my morning activity… I, then, prepared our breakfast which actually were just leftover food from the night before and some free coffee… ๐Ÿ•๐Ÿ”๐Ÿžโ˜•๏ธ

After eating breakfast, have prepared the bathtub for kiddos… and we took out our 2nd day outfit… ๐Ÿคฉ The place is so cold that when I tried to ready and checked my moisturizer (VCO), its state changed from liquid to solid… ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ˜

proof that the place is cold even without aircon

This is it! It was an early check out in CS… At 11am, we needed to vacate the cottage… We took all the things out and proceeded to the reception area… Then, we took pics, went horseback riding, ate our lunch and ride the ziplines… My daughter went first… She was laughing coz I was the one who is more thrilled than her and she was quiet while doing the zipline… Where is the fun in that? ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿคช The men who assembled her gears asked her if she was okay ๐Ÿคช…

It was a thrilling experience… We saw lots of giant ferns, pine trees and other exotic flora… After my zipline, we drove back to Davao City around 2:45pm and we arrived 2 hours after… We felt tired upon reaching the house and so I asked my kids that we all take a nap…

It was a fun adventure for us three… The memories we made there were something that we could look back on… Now it is time to look at the present and forward… No time to waste.. Pia requested that I teach her some tofu recipes of mine so she could cook it while I am gone…. I need to prepare myself for the March 14 departure… I will wake up tomorrow embracing the change and savoring the opportunity that the universe has gifted me… Imma start rolling my sleeves and hustle up!!! I can do this! Aja! ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’“

“Spilling the Tea”

“SepAnx” is real… That is the word of the day for me this week… SepAnx is a coined word for Separation Anxiety which I just learned from my daughter. Last February 3, I just received a job offer in Manila… It was something that I was so excited about since last year but now I can’t help feeling this “SepAnx” thingy… The moment I received it, I emailed my resignation letter to my bosses… They called me and I told them that the opportunity is aligned with my personal and professional goals so they wished me well. The next move I made was inform my team, which was a funny and sad part. Here it goes:

Last year, the company had a “mass-termination” of our temporary employees… That didn’t sit very well with the rest of the employees including the regulars. Some left in silence while the others were openly releasing their “burnout” fumes which kind of affected the whole organization morale. Last February 1, somebody came to conduct a background check of their applicant who was our former employee. I was the one who answered to all his questions about the former staff. The CI went well and good and I was sure that the former employee of ours would definitely land that job. ๐Ÿ˜‰ However, after the CI, the guy had a slip of the tongue when he mentioned that there is another staff he wanted to check but still currently employed in our company. I was trying to ask for the name but he didn’t mention… Hmmmm… I would say I am a good investigator… hehehe… I couldn’t sleep till I uncover who that person is so I devised a plan and pretended that the guy mentioned the name… I suspected he/she is one of our team leads…

Came yesterday, February 4, I finally got the balls to drop the bomb to my team. But before that, I met with my 3 team leads and I drafted a meeting schedule in Teams entitled “Spilling”. ๐Ÿ˜€ They were so anxious and already had an idea what I was about to tell them… I started by narrating the whole CI experience and that it went well until he mentioned the last part… I applied reverse psychology and told them that the guy mentioned the name (even though he did not! ;-)) There were denials from the others.. then one of them admitted that it was her who applied but then she already decided not to pursue that application because of the many reasons she mentioned… After her admission, I told her that the guy never really mentioned the name and I said sorry to her and we were all laughing and they said I tricked them… hahaha… Oh well! I proceeded to the main agenda which is actually me spilling the tea. I told them that I am resigning and that my last day is on March 2 (since we are required to render one month notice)… They were shocked and asked me a lot of questions like why, where and what made me etc… I answered them all and one of the leads told me that I should announce it to the whole team… So he asked everybody to go inside my office and then I shared again to them my decision to leave. The whole morning was spent on well wishing and laughing.. I didn’t realize that I was laughing too hard that even others heard it. ๐Ÿ˜€ They said I have an infectious laugh… hahaha

I was relieved but sepanx is really seeping in me right now. My future employer asked me when I will onboard and I requested the date to be after my birthday so I could still celebrate it with my kids… And thankfully, they generously agreed to it. They already arranged for my airport pickup and the place for my relocation. Thank you Lord! ๐Ÿ™‚ After the tea has been spilt, there is no looking back now… only a look ahead… Although I will be separated from my kids for three months, I am so positive about what that future will bring. ๐Ÿ™‚

“Silence of the Lambs” – A Girl Talk

It was a rainy Thursday evening last week… it was dinner time…. I cooked Char Kway Teow for the first time which was totally unexpected because I was planning to cook Pho again but then I thought my kids would say, “Again???!!!” ๐Ÿ™‚ So I thought of something that I could use the Banh Pho noodles with and yeah the Vegan Char Kway Teow was “born”:

  • Photo by Food + Art on January 30, 2021. Image may contain: food.

Well, this post is not about food though. After eating dinner and sharing about the excitement we have had about the future plan, my daughter kinda turned almost about to sob. I asked her why and she began opening up something which I never thought would turn out to be the most satisfying conversation that my daughter and I had when I mentioned the word diary… yeah, this diary.

She started with saying that she googled my blog and it wasn’t easy because there were a lot of blogs with the same title as mine… so she added the word Bohol and that made her start to read which for me is a shocker because when I made this blog, she was there and she even commented on the first post I had… Well, maybe she forgot the URL. Anyhow, when she found my blog she saw the “Diary of a Hopeless Romantic” post which talks about me finding out about this boy and their conversation… There she began to cry and asked me why I talked about that part to my BFF, Iris (who is her Tita/Godmother)… And that he is never her boyfriend (oh my! i don’t know what is the definition of a boyfriend these days!!! ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿคช) I listened then when she is done, I told her that I am not bothered about her reading my blog and told her that I was kind of expecting her to read my blogs. I have nothing to hide anyway… I am so open to my kids even about my crush… so yeah! I told her that Tita Iris is her second mom and when I am gone (God forbid!), she can always refer to her anytime because she is the most understanding person in the world. I regard her as my soulmate… She is one of the very few people in the world that I could talk to anything about and I know that I will always have her back regardless. She asked me “why tell her mom?” and I told her “I got scared, I panicked… I have no one to talk to about it at that time that I know could very well relate because for one, she knows you and she is used to talking to kids with the same concern being a guidance counselor in a secondary school in Manila.” She said that she tried putting her shoes into mine but she could not understand why I should be scared about it at all… And I said, because you are not a mom… You could only wear my hat when you become one… She turned silent and she smiled saying that at least she was able to vent it out and yeah, I told her that I love it when she opens up to me like that. I told her my time with mom during my high school years… I was in my second year high school then… I arrived from school shouting “Ma! Ma! I have a very good news! My crush said he has a crush on me too!” hahaha… He said he likes my eyes during a truth or dare game back then… I was so happy and my mom was smiling… I was giggling… I told my daughter about how everything went up when I was so inspired. I want that same relationship with my daughter. That her thoughts are safe with me… But then I told her “maybe I should think that you are not me and I am not you”… We both agreed to that.

We began talking about my other posts and we were laughing and asked why do I always interpret songs. Well, that is me… I told her that I am a hopeless romantic… Love songs always move me and its either I am so drawn to them because of the lyrics, the melody, the voice or just plain appreciation of the artistry… regardless of whether it’s rock, pop, classical, jazz, broadway, etc, I could sing to all those love songs with my eyes closed, some protruding veins on my neck and a pitch-not-so-perfect… ๐Ÿ˜‚ I know I am cheesy… And I could say to the whole wide world that I am cheesy and proud!!! ๐Ÿง€๐Ÿง€๐Ÿง€๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿฅ‚ why not?! ๐Ÿ˜‹ At the end of our conversation, I told her how I love talking to her like that and encouraged her to open up some more.

I am not a perfect mom… well, who is?… though I am 40-something (hehe), I am still a work-in-progress… What I realized out of that conversation though is that communication is key to any relationship… my daughter turned silent and harbored all those emotions inside of her while I too was silent and didn’t have a single clue that “that” was a big deal to her. I thought her irritability was part of either PMS or her being a teenager… Though I think I sometimes have the talent of reading some persons mind, I do not possess such ability all the time when people won’t let me in. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿคซ Misunderstanding arises when a person either refuses to share or refuses to ask direct questions and make assumptions that may be untrue or just based on speculations… I am glad that everything is clear with me and my daughter now… Hope she will continue to open up. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™๐Ÿปโค๏ธ